Broke up 3 times and now I am married to him

At the begining...

Well here is something that I am not sure a lot of people get to write. My (now) husband and I first met when I was *gasp* 19. Or was it 18? Of course I feel head over heels for him. Couldn't imagine my life without him etc

In the middle...

Anyway, we went out and broke up. A year passed - yes an entire year people - and we got back together. Then we broke up again.

Then another year passed. Then we got back together, bought a house, moved in, engaged 3 years later and now we are married. Yup, married. Who would have thought?

I still can't believe it. I think back to when we were apart and he broke my heart (yes, he broke it off twice). and yes I still can't believe I went back. Why?? Because no other decent man came along. Well only one man came along who I was friends with and the timing was never right. Everytime I was with my husband he was single and everytime I was single he had a girlfriend. Talk about "Timing is everything." Then the only time we had a hope in hell of getting things together (at least we were both single at the time) he froze! Had a panic attack because he just went through a break up. So he decided not to speak to me for a few months. Thats when my husband decides to speak to me again and try to sort it out. And thats when the other guy 'unfreezes' and wants to try. Too late. Already made amends with my hubby and back with him.

So.... yes unbelievably my hubby broke my heart twice and I went back each time. That was due to 2 things:

1. The timing of another decent man coming along just didn't happen (partly cos I angry for the longest time and didn't want anythin gto do with men)

and

2. I still loved my husband. I was still in love with him.

Then...

I can't believe it's some ten years later and we are here. Together. Married.

So....never say never.

Yawn

And yes I was exhausted today...I can understand how this cat is feeling! Hopefully tonight will be a different story. (pls pls pls let me fall asleep tonight)....

Cranky

What a day. Very irritating. Had everyone around me bludge at work today. Cup of tea here, morning tea there, 10 min convo here, afternoon tea here. I stop for a whole minute only to be told to stop wasting time and other people have "work to do." Funny that they didn't have work to aaaaaall day! humph.

added to that I hit my head on the car on the way out of my car (I still don't know how i managed that) and i forgot my lunch.

so i had this face twice today:

ramblings of an insomniac

So it's almost midnight and just for something new I can't sleep. I wish there was an off switch button for my brain. How is it that we can put man on the moon yet can't figure out how women can through labour without any pain at all. How? (An epidural doesn't count because that is not always 100% effective and there are risks). I have work tomorrow and I know I'm going to be tired. Doesn't stop my brain though. Maybe it was the super sweet cupcakes I had earlier this afternoon? That will teach me. But damn I think they were worth it.

Last week this week before Christmas holidays! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Only 5 more days of work and then my sanity will come back to me. I honestly don't know how some people manage to stay working somewhere if they are unhappy. I also wish that political correctness didn't exsit because I sure would like to tell some people what I think of them.

Imagine this: One week, where everyone in the world had to tell the truth. Think of things! Sure all hell would probably break loose, but think: telling your boss exactly what you think of him/her and watching them respond! Happy Disclaimer: After the one week of truth telling, everyone forgets what happened. I think it would be great just to see people's reactions. Fancy being in high school and being able to tell the hottest most popular guy you know that you like him? Knowing well that in a week he'd forget. But at least you'd see his recation. Fancy asking your boss for a pay increase; telling your friends that secret you have held onto; telling someone where they shove it; or simple saying the most ludicrous things "does my ass look big in this?" "yea honey, but it sure does take the focus off your face." !

It would be great to watch all of that unfold. Think of the times you have been involved in a conversation and you know the other person isn't telling the truth. Or playing "office politics" because heaven forbid anyone should actually say what they were thinking. Think of the workplace if there was nothing but the truth..... Now that's what I call entertainment.

"The truth will set you free."

(Sure it will, but take it from me it can also get you into trouble!)  : )

what is worse? "A truth that draws a tear, or a lie that draws a smile?"